I dont know if it's right, to keep feelings inside.Its hard to tell someone because most of them are just complaints.I don't want to be known to complain alot, to gossip alot.And sometimes, I HAVE to keep things to myself because I find it embarassing. I dont know how to react, I don't know how to tell someone but I really do. Its hard because I had to choose the things I can let go and tell someone but who? I wish someone can read me, come to me and tell me how I feel instead of me looking and searching a people for a person to talk. So most of the times, I choose to avoid, avoiding that particular place and person because I don't want to remember anything about it. And even at times, I force myself to exhaustion so I can take a long nap so that I'll wake up and pretend it never happend before.









Why it is that I tend to choose the things that happen around me?First,food.

It might sound extreamely evil I don't choose friend but I don't want to,it just......happens.If anyone noticed,I dont approach people that often or even willing to walk to a lonely girl who's sitting in the corner to say hi. Which results to me treating the people whom I'm close with more than they should be treated.

In other words, I can say that I treat them as I'm in love with them.As crazy as it sounds,I try to tresure and hold on to everthing that its important to me because I don't want to lose anything again, as hard as it could be.no matter how many crazy things I've do to make that person happy and make them remember everything that I've done is because they truly truly mean alot to me.Or in other words,FEAR OF BEING UNACCEPTED.

Strangely, I often never open up myself , the things I say often go through my head 10 times before it is presented nicely to be heard. Unless yes, is you're the few I comfortable with.

Sorry people , I know most of time I might stone alot during a conversation, I spend most of time thinking of what to say;
to leave a good image.


I love football
I sing EVERWHERE
I play video games(pretty well:)))
I afraid of lizards on ceillings(especially in the bathroom,beacause DUH! I don't want them landing on me naked!)
I hate clowns.
I think of what to wear 3 days before I actually wear them.
I disliked unclosed door.

THERE!Thats the truth.
(this is where I begin to think of how to end the post)

Okay, Au Revoir'